Woman undone

Today I was on the verge of being one of those women you see on an episode of Snapped on lifetime network.  So not proud of my behavior at work.  I do pride myself on being professional at work but I was having one of those days when you feel that the management team above you are not stepping up and doing what they should be doing and I snapped.  I got frustrated and honestly tired of being told I will be given help only to have that help taken away and given to someone else right away when there were others that could have been used for the job.  Oh well what is done is done.  I really do enjoy certain aspects of my job.  And I will say it is hard to be positive when so many around you have a very negative attitude.  Now that the dark cloud of Mother's Day is over things are a lot lighter feeling in the house.  I did get well wishes from two out of three of my kids which is pretty good.  Number 3 knows I love him no matter what so when I do hear from him I just want to know he's okay.  So working in retail,particularly ladies clothing, I have had a few people ask my opinion of the whole Abercrombie and Fitch ridiculousness that has been made public.  For anybody that has stepped foot in their stores can you really be surprised that this is the way the company operates.  Oh they made it clear who they want to buy their clothes when they made them in the sizes(or lack of) and prices they did.  And it is elitist bullshit but it is out there and if we are offended by their policy why do we want to spend money in their stores?  I love Victorias Secret.  When I turned 18 and was at my smallest size I could buy anything off the rack there and loved it.  It wasn't I put on weight that I realized that they really only cater to smaller sizes in their stores.  That was when I decided that no matter what if I got back down to a smaller size I would never shop them again.  Now I think I can understand Victorias Secret a little more because they are marketing adult lingerie for women.  Where A and F really markets to young impressionable kids. It is comsumer bullying.  Telling the bigger kids you are not cool enough for us.  Amy Taylor really said it well in her open letter to Mike Jeffries CEO of  A and F.  There is so much cruelty out there those of us who are lucky faced it in our younger years and used that experience to learn and be become better people.  I raised my kids to stand up to bullies and my youngest now revels in putting bullies in their place.  We can be part of the solution or part of the problem.  I would do anything for all of these kids that have ended their own lives because of bullying to be back here with us so they could have everyone tell them they are worth soooo much and what they are facing now they will look back on and this time and realize it made them stronger.  The internet is an amazing invention especially for the way it has connected people all over the world but there is just this horrible part of it that the meanest,sickest,emptiest people are there too and they must be ignored.  Don't give their words merit.