Making lemonade out of rotten freaking lemons

Today is my day off and you know where I ha to go first thing this morning.  Since my sons glasses decided they could not hold up for another 2 or 3 months I had to take him to either get them fixed or get new ones.  The two of us went together without anyone else tagging along and it was very nice.  We sat and talked at McDonalds as he devoured a breakfast and some of my coffee.  I picked up a movie I had been waiting for and it was the most beautiful sunny breezy morning ever.  Even though my dear hubby fixed the air conditioning on my car last week we rode with the windows down.  I let him stick his head out the window and yell at the top of his lungs at which point he quickly ducked his head back into the car and yelled ,Oh CRAP LOVEBUG SEASON.  He managed to avoid taking a bug to the eye or worse in the mouth thank goodness.  Today started off rough with the husband.  I am not into the drama today.  We both said our words to each other and I went off on my way.  I made a decision a while back that if he needs to leave I will let him go and he is aware of that.  He has his appointment with his new psychiatrist next month and I pray it goes well.  I have had a few friends ask me why I stay with him and it really simple.  I didn't just wake up one day and he had changed.  It has been a slow gradual progression over the years that I have watched him change.  When I first met him he worked two jobs and still made time for his family.  We were broke most of the time and struggling to make ends meet but those really were the best days.  I heard one time that sometimes you don't love the person still but the memory of who they were but I can't help but feeling that man is still trapped inside trying to get out.  I know he is.  I see bits and pieces of him sometimes.  Mother's Day as I sat and watched him cook our dinner for the three of us I saw him.  So today is a quiet day and still a good day.  And just a sidenote...whoever in this house keeps taking black string all balled up and leaving it in places to look like a big gnarley spider and scare the crap out of people when they go to the bathroom in the middle of the night are gonna get it.  I will figure out who it is.