What day is it?

It has certainly been some time since I managed to log on here but I stayed away for a couple of good reasons, I think anyway.  One and most important I really felt that I had nothing to say of any significance.  Maybe I never did but anyone who feels that way shouldn't be reading this anyway.  And anybody who knows me in real life knows if I do not have anything to say worth sharing I just keep my yap shut and listen.  So I got quiet for a while.  There was also the stress of work and birthday season at home to slow things down.  Lastly, thanks to a certain candy crushing game online computer time has been a bitch to obtain.  Not that half the household doesn't also have ipads and iphones but they must use EVERY device they can.  But I,like the minions all over the television am back...back again.  Had to go there.  So since I took a hiatus we have had NSA leaks, gay marraige wins a huge battle, Zimmerman trial has started, Paula Deen has been branded with a scarlet R.  So much to talk about.  No I will not address any of these issues tonight because really everybody else is talking about this stuff I have nothing new to add except my own opinion.  I will say this.  Anyone who didn't already suspect that their "private" conversations and communications were being monitored by some type of government entity well you should have.  I am not saying it's right or should be done. BUT It really wasn't surprising at all.  With all of this advanced technology to make the world a better place you see us becoming a more Orwellian society.  As long as there are Snowdens out there pulling back the curtains there is hope.  that is all about that.  If I had written a few days ago I would have said the hubby is doing pretty good but that really is a roller coaster that speeds up a little each day.  Today and yesterday not as good as others.  No thanks to his new doc that cut his meds in half.  He has an appointment in September with another new doctor in September so we will just tough it out till then.  I was struggling with the age old issue of being with someone who has changed so much and so opposite from the man I fell in love with and even he has said I should leave him because our son and I would be better off without him.  And it is true that financially things would be WAY better.  The dark cloud would be lifted from over our heads on a  daily basis.  But there would be a hole where he should be.  He did not choose this illness and as I have said before I have to think of it as if he has cancer or something.  Depression, bi-polar,manic depressive they are diseases.  What kind of wife leaves her husband because he is sick.  Do I wonder what my life would be like as a single mom.  Maybe everyday.  And I admitted that to him which was hard.  But I also told him we fight this together and if I am not there to pick him up who will.  I am no martyr or saint.  This year will be our seventeenth year together how do you walk away from that. So that is all same as usual.  Also turning into a pattern is my gifted child is once again doing summer school classes.  We thought he had snuck in under the radar but no such luck.  My sister and I returned from a two day orlando stay with the kids(her birthday gift to me) to find the notice from the school.  So once again I am battling my youtube addicted child with daily school work.  In true bad mom form I am bribing him with doses of his favorite Mountain Dew version.  To balance it out I tricked him into eating fake chicken patties that were actually tofu and he likes them now so at least I got him to like one new healthy thing.  This is my vacation week and I am ready to try my gardening again.  The herbs I was growing and did manage to get lots of fresh rosemary and basil from before they were pronounced dead and given a proper burial will be replaced.  I am going to even grow some veggies.  I prefer to control what goes into my veggies.  This is day two of my vacation.  I think I will be getting in a lot of pool time this week but also made a goal to do four new things this week.  No idea what yet but I am working on it.  There are no good places anymore to go get a cup of coffee late at night anymore.  Used to love going to diners or cafes in my younger days and I would have a night off work.  Sit and read a book or take my sketch pad with me drink coffee and just observe.  I don't know where you can do that around here anymore.