Time to wake up and smell the chai

Yes nine glorious days over time to face reality tomorrow.  I have sneaked into my work a couple of times with the excuse of picking up a couple of things and whenever I glanced in the direction of my department which is in the very front of the store and hard to miss I wanted to cry so I am not looking forward to tomorrow but on the flip side my day should fly by.  I have enjoyed yummy food cooked from scratch, homemade ice cream, do it yourself facials and manicures, time to listen to music and catch up on movies, beautiful walks in the mornings after my favorite thing of my day(driving my amazing son to school).  I love the time we spend in the car listening to music.  He has been a Beatles fan since I got my first ipod when he was 5 and I was able to download all my favorites.  I have my very healthy lunch ready to take to work tomorrow and car full of gas.  I am going to make an effort this week to do more.  More enjoying,more playing, more listening.  Sometimes we get so caught up in what we want to say we forget to hear others around us.  Maybe the fact I have been on here more the last few days letting it all out is accounting for my quietness today.  If thats so then need to remember to do this more often too.  My next vacation comes around the beginning of July and I have already decided that no matter how much I enjoyed this next time we get away for a few days.  I love my family but they are freakin nuts sometimes.  My husband teases me that when I am stressed or frustrated or angry( which is most of the time) I crinkle my forehead and he said I am starting to get lines in between my eyebrows he says it's my Klingon face.  I have spent the week making those lines disappear lets see how quickly they come back after I clock in tomorrow.  One of my friends and my former superviser announced she is leaving her work to be a full time stay at home mom.  Her little ones are about 4 and 1 year old so the decision for her between work and motherhood was easy.  I stayed home with our kids until my youngest started school full time and then I only worked while he was in school.  This was back when my husband was still working 6 days a week and we could afford that.  Do I miss that stay at home time...hell yes.  I was very hands on and we were always doing stuff.  Now he is 13 and doesn't need me there to watch him every second.  I think even if I were to lose the job I have now I am developing my own business I would like to start and that would get more of my attention now.  I am babbling now not because I cannot sleep but because I know it is time to go to sleep.  Uuuuggggg.